I’ve debated for days whether or not to write this, and when/if I was going to how in the world would I ever put all my thoughts into one synopsis!
I find myself in awe this Birthday, last year was so different… we still had a lovely party with friends, celebrated with family, and counted our blessings… but we had just spent almost a month waiting… waiting on results.
You see, I have migraines and last winter/spring they began to intensify. Not increasing in number, but increasing in pain and duration. After a little coaxing and a LOT of encouragement I took the big trip to the Doctor. If you didn’t know it, nurses make the worst patients so it took a great deal of convincing. We decided that a CT scan was in order, which led to an MRI to rule out an area of concern at the base of my skull.
The first MRI was conducted during the absolute worst migraine I’ve ever experienced. As much as it sucked, I was thankful they were seeing an “angry brain” so they could, hopefully, see what was going on in there. Well, that MRI found a pituitary cyst which we needed to rule out as “nothing else” so I went for a second MRI specifically looking at the pituitary region. (Spoiler alert: I’m fine and healthy today!)
Here’s what was so tough; when waiting for those results to come I had no idea what they would be and it was completely out of my control. Could I be diagnosed at 28 with brain cancer? How could I then take care of my kids, my family, my team… the list is endless. It was so difficult to think through much less talk about with anyone, even Justin at times!
I will say this, and I will make it very clear, I never questioned God during this time. I had full faith that God was and is more powerful than my migraines and cancer, but God doesn’t always promise a yes, He just promises he will be there if we choose Him. So we waited, and waited, and on the night we held my 28th birthday with close friends we shared our circumstances. We were greeted with love and positive hopes, which we of course appreciated…but still IT was there!
So you may ask why have I been compelled to share this now? Because at some point in life your IT will come, or maybe it has already, and I want to encourage you. I didn’t lose faith. I cried, got angry at moments, and I was scared shitless… Which, to me, are all pieces when an IT happens.
This is the scripture that got me through and that I held onto with hope.
This birthday is spent in such thankfulness that my IT resolved itself but I hope and pray if you have an IT, whatever it may be…share it with someone, pray over it, know that you aren’t alone!
All my best,
Elizabeth, celebrating 2️⃣9️⃣